Saturday, September 25, 2010
"8"
It is that magic number on which I start.
So why this?
Scraps of paper and half completed journals be dammed. Have started and stopped too many. Can this medium be what those never made it to be-a constant in which I, the forever participant-observer carefully records a perspective, my perspective?
So why now?
A long time ago I decided that the true currency of life was experience, as memories are the sustenance of our deathbeds. But as I progress through life with this mantra, a miscalculation has arisen: memory. Once ironclad, it now has begun to slowly lose its hold on the moments of the past. Now I know that this is the way of the world. Oral history is a flexible beast, both gaining or losing volume. But, as I have decided experience to be my value, I wish it to hold some form. So as a buffer to this loss, I find myself here.
Also, as I have hermitted myself away for the past three years, I have a need to open and spill. And, as a place for family and friends to be able to always access me, to catch that spillage. No matter where I am. No matter what I am being.
Lastly, a nod to the number.
Eight signifies how many weeks I have left in my occupation of a corner of space, in the area of Hawiyah, not quite Taif, in the country of Saudi Arabia. Eight weeks till I begin an open-ended venture, as slowly as I possibly can. And here is where I shall record those observations, of a forever participant-observer.
So why this?
Scraps of paper and half completed journals be dammed. Have started and stopped too many. Can this medium be what those never made it to be-a constant in which I, the forever participant-observer carefully records a perspective, my perspective?
So why now?
A long time ago I decided that the true currency of life was experience, as memories are the sustenance of our deathbeds. But as I progress through life with this mantra, a miscalculation has arisen: memory. Once ironclad, it now has begun to slowly lose its hold on the moments of the past. Now I know that this is the way of the world. Oral history is a flexible beast, both gaining or losing volume. But, as I have decided experience to be my value, I wish it to hold some form. So as a buffer to this loss, I find myself here.
Also, as I have hermitted myself away for the past three years, I have a need to open and spill. And, as a place for family and friends to be able to always access me, to catch that spillage. No matter where I am. No matter what I am being.
Lastly, a nod to the number.
Eight signifies how many weeks I have left in my occupation of a corner of space, in the area of Hawiyah, not quite Taif, in the country of Saudi Arabia. Eight weeks till I begin an open-ended venture, as slowly as I possibly can. And here is where I shall record those observations, of a forever participant-observer.
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